Finding Peace with Rose Quartz

 

    Have you ever wished you could have five minutes with a loved one who passed away?  Just five more minutes to tell them you love them and have a chance to say goodbye?  That’s what I’ve been wishing lately as I approach the anniversary of my grandmother’s death. 

    My grandmother passed away last year after the COVID-19 pandemic started.  Because of all the restrictions that were set into place, I wasn’t able to be with her during her final days.  Calling her wasn’t an option because she was nearly deaf and couldn’t hear voices over the phone.  Due to restrictions, I wasn’t even allowed to attend her funeral.  I can envision her during the last weeks of her life, laying limply under her plush teal blanket in an empty room, not understanding why everyone suddenly stopped visiting.  It’s like my heart has been chopped into a million tiny pieces, floating aimlessly in a deep black hole.

     It would have been my grandmother's birthday this Saturday, which makes things even harder.  Before COVID, the nursing home would always throw her a big birthday bash with music and dancing, the whole works.  It always put a big smile on her face, turning her soft cheeks a bright rosy glow.  Knowing that I will never share that happiness with her again stirs up an anger inside of me.  It's like a raging hurricane roaring through my head. 

    As I researched the healing properties of Rose Quartz, I learned that Rose Quartz can help with grief and healing a broken heart.  It’s said to have a positive effect in balancing emotions.  It’s known to be associated with tranquility, serenity, and unconditional love. 

    Maybe this is the crystal for me.  Maybe this can help me find peace. 

    Of course, as always, the overbearing skeptic in me crawled out and took over.  Rose Quartz isn’t going to bring your grandmother back.  Rose Quartz isn’t going to take the sadness away.  Rose Quartz is just an object.   

    For the sake of my experimental blog, I decided to give it a try.  I went to my box of crystals and noticed I had four pieces of Rose Quartz.  After cleansing each piece under cool running water, I placed three of them in the common areas of my house and placed the fourth one in my pocket to carry with me throughout the day.

    The sun shined brightly amongst the clear blue sky, luring me outside for a nature walk.  As I was walking, I thought about my grandmother and envisioned her walking beside me. Tears filled my eyes, blurring my vision.  I took the Rose Quartz from my pocket and held it in my hand for a while.  The crystal felt warm and I felt a calmness throughout my body.  The Rose Quartz didn't take away the sadness of losing my grandmother, but for the entire day I did feel a sense of peace. 

    As the day was winding down, my husband looked at me puzzled and said, “You seem really calm today.”    

    I smiled and said, “Because I have Rose Quartz in my pocket.”